i got the point that i should leave you alone

but we both know that im not that strong.

so last night i had an incredible time at courtney's graduation party. thanks for inviting me courtney, really. i need to go to more parties and make more friends. everyone there last night was pretty awesome. =]

i gave myself a headache on the way home. i think my music was louder than its ever been. and i think i figured out why i turn it up so loud all the time. i didnt want to have to think. i wanted the music to drown out my thoughts. because my thoughts can be dangerous sometimes. despite the headache, i still thought. i guess its something i cant run away from. and ill say only one thing on the matter that i thought of: the more im with you the more i see how much potential we have. but potential means nothing if you dont acknowledge it.

but compared to your eyes nothing shines quite as bright.
and when we look to the sky its not mine, but i want it so.

today's graduation. i dont think ill cry. because i dont think it ever really hits you that you might never see these people again. its probably the might the keeps the tears back. the hope that you will see them again. but chances are you wont. and theyll start their lives a year before you. and while youre stuck in high school getting everything you want without working too hard for it theyre out there racking their brains for the next step in fulfilling their dreams. and maybe, just maybe theyll give up. but thats not what you want to think about. you want to think about them all becoming doctors and senators and business owners just like they said they always would. even though you know some dreams will fall through. and some of your closest friends that youve spent the last three years with will not end up as happy as they should. you dont want to forget about them but you probably will. it happens every year, every graduation, every walk across that stage. and soon youll be focused on your own graduation and dreams. which may fall through. good thing theres a hope better than succeeding in the "real world". and no matter what dreams of mine fall through and dont, i will always have that hope to lean on. and thats something i will never forget.

good luck 2008 graduates! you guys are incredibly smart and have a very promising future ahead of you. you should be thoroughly excited! =]

i think thats good for today.
i need breakfast?