i'll be holding my breath that you would stay.

so ive been thinking...

1. i feel like crap for totally screwing my best friend over today. i dont listen enough. and im sorry. really i am. its something ive become used to doing and i need to really figure out a way to get it fixed. because i wouldnt want my best friend to treat me like that.

2. the world is against me today. ive been sneezing all day and my nose feels like its about to blow up. i never have allergies. whats the deal?

3. i dont see how this is going to be avoided. at least not for the next... like... year. maybe its just me. but its something. and if one of us is good at pretending it doesnt exist, you are. but even then... you arent that good. ha. personally, i like it. a lot. but maybe im over analyzing. right now im just kind of caught up in the idea.

thats it for now. just had to get some things off my mind. im gonna go watch the band video now. because that makes me happy.