My Fall Break was pretty amazing. And my God surprised me with a glimpse of hope that I wasn't expecting. One that lead me to believe everything I was fighting so hard for was really worth it. A reminder that He is God and He can work in mighty, mighty ways.
I don't know everything. I barely know anything. But I do know what I want. I know that I am in the right place. I'm not perfect. I don't always get the details right. The small things aren't always neatly placed in a straight line like they should be. But I'm working on it. And I'm looking for direction. From God. I want my relationship with Him to grow. I want to learn more.
Every person has a different perception of things. No two people see something in exactly the same way. Let alone are two people able to feel exactly the same towards that thing. People are wired differently. And although God has set out a set of rules, or guidelines, for everyone to follow, I don't believe everyone interprets them in the exactly same way. Perception is subjective. There is a point, however, where perception can cross a line that shouldn't be crossed. The thing about that line, though, is that it has been crossed many times. And people have learned so much from simply crossing it. Rarely is that line crossed on purpose. But the line does serve a purpose in so many lives. Will I have to cross that line to learn what I need to learn? I hope not. But there's no way to tell. The cool thing is that you can walk right back to the other side. Not without scars, of course. But then again, the scars can be healed.
I have a vision for my life. I have a promise given to me by my Father. I have a glimpse of what my life can be. I am daily learning how to get closer to that future. I am not perfect. But God will continue to love me. And I will continue to love Him. No matter what.
I can't help but feel alone. But I know that I'm not. It's merely another hoop I have to jump through. As soon as I can get up the strength to jump.
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