Listen to this song to make your heart feel better ;

I am happy.
Really. Like, I look through pictures of the past & the present & I realize how good I have it. I have so many ridiculously great memories. And I have so many more to look forward to.
I overreact sometimes. About a lot of stuff that really doesn't matter. But the next day always comes and leaves the past in the past.
I have a million reasons to smile today. My heart feels so full.
My life is a tremendous blessing.
Thank you, Lord, for the promise of a new day.
:)

Some will say we're headed for destruction ;

My Fall Break was pretty amazing. And my God surprised me with a glimpse of hope that I wasn't expecting. One that lead me to believe everything I was fighting so hard for was really worth it. A reminder that He is God and He can work in mighty, mighty ways.

I don't know everything. I barely know anything. But I do know what I want. I know that I am in the right place. I'm not perfect. I don't always get the details right. The small things aren't always neatly placed in a straight line like they should be. But I'm working on it. And I'm looking for direction. From God. I want my relationship with Him to grow. I want to learn more.

Every person has a different perception of things. No two people see something in exactly the same way. Let alone are two people able to feel exactly the same towards that thing. People are wired differently. And although God has set out a set of rules, or guidelines, for everyone to follow, I don't believe everyone interprets them in the exactly same way. Perception is subjective. There is a point, however, where perception can cross a line that shouldn't be crossed. The thing about that line, though, is that it has been crossed many times. And people have learned so much from simply crossing it. Rarely is that line crossed on purpose. But the line does serve a purpose in so many lives. Will I have to cross that line to learn what I need to learn? I hope not. But there's no way to tell. The cool thing is that you can walk right back to the other side. Not without scars, of course. But then again, the scars can be healed.

I have a vision for my life. I have a promise given to me by my Father. I have a glimpse of what my life can be. I am daily learning how to get closer to that future. I am not perfect. But God will continue to love me. And I will continue to love Him. No matter what.

I can't help but feel alone. But I know that I'm not. It's merely another hoop I have to jump through. As soon as I can get up the strength to jump.

Hold on tight, wait for tomorrow, you'll be alright ;

I miss having that hand to hold. I miss being able to run to my parents room when there's a storm in the middle of the night. I miss not having to worry about my future. I don't even remember feeling scared of failure as a kid. I don't recall worrying about anything. None of my worries ever lasted more than a few minutes.

My future depends on me now. If I want to achieve my goals, I have to work hard for them. I can't get tired & have someone else go through the process for me and expect to end up with the finished product. It doesn't work that way. It's taxing & difficult. A lot more difficult than I thought. Maybe if I were used to discouragement this wouldn't be so bad. But I'm not. Because I haven't had to deal with anything hard my whole life. It's not that I regret that. I just don't want to have to go through anything like this. But, apparently, it's life.

I need this break. I need church. All day on Sunday. I need encouragement. I need a reminder. A boost from My Father. If He really wants me to do this, I need a real refresher.

For now I just need to get through this Writing midterm. After that's over, I can come home. It's hard to look forward to coming home with a crucial midterm looming over my head. Not to mention my lesson.

Lord, I really need Your help. I'm fading and I have less than 24 hours left. I can't afford to fall apart. Not now.

Wise men say: "Only fools rush in." ;

That, my friends, is indeed a supernova.
& it is exactly how I'm feeling.
The fact that my heart is still inside my chest is a complete miracle.
I am bursting.
Ridiculously in love.
With my boyfriend.
With my Jesus.
With my life.

<3

For God to give so willingly to someone who doesn't deserve a bit of it;

I don't understand.

But I accept it.

I am ridiculously in love.

I think I can't, but I think You can ;

It is a beautifully rainy day here in Rock Hill, South Carolina. I don't much care for the rain. I don't much care for cold weather. I do, however, get a good bit of satisfaction from the peace I have inside me.

Never underestimate my Jesus.

I love waking up every morning knowing that what I'm doing now is getting me one step closer to where I need to be. That this process is what will lead me to doing what I've been called to do. I'm studying to do something that I will love.

Why try to rush things? Yes, the thought of marriage and being a mom really excites me. But that is so far away. Right now I'm here to get a degree. I'm here to learn about myself and about what I believe. And maybe, just maybe, throughout the whole process I can be a vessel to show the love of God to everyone I come in contact with.

Focus isn't usually a consistent characteristic. Its not meant to be easily achieved. It takes a lot of mental dedication. Something I've never really believed I had too much of. My focus is renewed every day. I can't start my day without asking for a reminder of why I'm here. I even found myself, this morning, thanking God for the blessing of being in the situation I'm in. It occured to me that I hadn't once thanked God for allowing me the opportunity to even go to college! How selfish is that? It's a ridiculously amazing blessing that I do not deserve. But God has a purpose. And after all He's done for me, who am I to deny that purpose? I'm living for the sake of His love.

I like this feeling. The feeling of being complete. Sometimes I get a hint of dread at the moment when this feeling will fade. Then I realize that's a waste of time. Because even if the feeling does fade, it will be back. My God never changes. He always stays the same. He's always waiting for me.
He is, and always will be, my rock.

"If I lose my magic, that means I've lost absolutely everything."

So, I asked Chantal if I could steal her idea of posting pictures in my blog. Of course, plenty of people do it. I just wanted to make sure it wouldn't take away from her original blog style as a whole. She doesn't mind. I didn't really expect her to. She's a good friend. :)
Today is Friday. Friday's are good days. Always laid back. Today I went to Psychology. Which is a great class, by the way. I have literally enjoyed every single class we've had. Then I came back, ate some lunch & watched Kiki's Delivery Service. Hence the quote and picture. It was the first time I'd seen it. Quite cute. So far all of the Studio Ghibli movies I've watched, I have enjoyed. Kudos to my boyfriend for the awesome birthday present! ;)
Today I have a few things to that I have to do. But I don't have to worry about going to class. Not to mention I really don't have any homework for the weekend. I have to do a reflection for the play I saw last night. Which was a lot better than I thought it would be. I don't know what's wrong with people. They said it was awful. It was extrememly cold in the theater, but awful, it was not.
I also have to read a chapter for Music Tech. But I have until Tuesday to do that. Actually, probably at least a week. Although I am planning to do that this weekend, I'm not worried about it. As for today my only solid plan is meeting Amanda at Subway for dinner. Sometime around that I need to do laundry and practice and workout. The dishes will take like two minutes. And the taking out the trash is something I can do on my way out. I sure do love Fridays. :)
As for tomorrow, it is going to be quite a day. We're playing a concert in front of Byrnes at one. I have to be there an hour early, though, to warm up and what not. My parents are coming to listen. I'll be excited when that's over. It's probably going to be warm and we have to wear all black. So, I'll make sure not to forget my deoderant...
After the concert, I'm gonna grab some lunch with my parents. Then coming back to Lexington with them. I was really disappointed that I didn't get to see White Knoll perform at Irmo last weekend since it was called off. Silly weather. I decided to come back with my parents so I could go to the Silver to see them. Although, they're only playing exhibition, I still get to see them. I'm sure they'll do amazing. I mean, they're White Knoll, duh!
After the competition, Jared's going to bring me back up. Then we get to spend a little time together before he has to go back to work Sunday afternoon. That should be good.
The weekend kind of snuck up on me. This week went by so fast. It's the first week I can say that I've honestly enjoyed. I hope it stays that way for a while. If I have the desire to keep my attitude right, then it will. The key ingredient, of course, is the Holy Spirit. I just have to keep wanting Him. After seeing what He can do, I don't see how I could not want Him!
Anyway, I've been kind of in the nap mood. So I think I'm gonna go on and spend a little quality time with my bed. :)