Now autumn brings the beautiful things;

Well, it's August. Already. I have to admit I have had a really great summer. In the past couple of months I have learned so much about myself & what I want out of life. I can confidently say that I have no regrets about this summer & I am very proud of how it turned out. :)
I leave for Rock Hill in a week exactly. 7 days. Again, it's crazy to think about being a college student. It seems like yesterday I was going to my first band camp. But, ya know, that's life. & it moves quickly, whether you're ready for it to or not. I've been praying to get rid of any college anxiety & I must say it has been working. Instead of being worried about going away, I've had peace about the situation. Not so much of a resigned peace. More of like a nearly excited peace. I know that it's going to be okay. It'll be good, actually. And, where before I was almost dreading the start of the semester, I am looking forward to it. At least, it's getting there. & I'm going to keep praying about it. Because I really don't want to be torn up by nerves. & I'd hate to ever dread waking up & facing another day. That's not the way I would choose to live my life. Make the best out of everything, right?
Tonight's actually the first night in a long time that I've been home this early. Lately I've been out past midnight. I guess I've just been trying to make the most out of every moment of freedom I have left. Ha.
In all honesty I can't even imagine what this next chapter of my life is going to be like. So I think I've given up trying. As crazy as life gets these days I find myself surrendering my life on a daily basis. No one knows more about what's best for me than God does. So, why not just get rid of all the worry, stress & anxiety? I mean He's offered to take it off my hands free of charge! What person in their right mind would turn an opportunity like that down? I can honestly say that I am trusting the Lord with my life. Just thinking about the damage I could do to it on my own... No thanks.
Everything is starting to come together now. I'm almost ready to move in. Ever since I've been praying for a stress reliever I've felt so relaxed about it all. Why is it that we are so stupid sometimes? It takes us getting to the point where we feel so completely out of control before we realize that we don't have to do everything on our own. & it's not like it's a one time thing. It happens at least three times a year. Oh, consistency, how we yearn for you. I doubt it will ever be different. But at least I reach that point where I remember sanity is just a prayer away. I don't know where I'd be without Him. I really don't.
Anyway, I'm tired. And I haven't read a book in like a week. Well, besides the Bible. So I think I'm gonna go read for a bit then head on to bed. Maybe I can actually wake up around ten tomorrow. That would be awesome. I'd hate to waste my last few days at home by sleeping.