& we wake up to the breakdown of the things we never thought we could be;

hey, howdy, hey! :D
i am sitting outside on my back deck on this lovely saturday afternoon. im kinda squinting cuz im not wearing my sunglasses. i dont want a tan line. those arent too attractive when theyre on your face. lol. at least its a little cloudy. so i dont have to do too much heavy squinting. anywayyyyy...

i havent done too much this weekend. close to nothing, actually. but i guess thats cool. i mean i only have a few more weeks to enjoy a carefree lifestyle. soon itll be time to welcome responsibility back into my life. ha. & although i saw its only a few more weeks its more like... (im counting...) five more weeks. blah. as close as it is i still cant really imagine what college is gonna be like. i guess ill find out soon enough.

i think i may be going over the jareds tonight. not to hang out with him though. ill be hanging out with his sister. he's filming. boo. ill be glad when this movie is finished. although, im sure it wont be too long until they start writing a script for a new one. oh well. its good for him though. to have a hobby. ill admit the main problem is that this time of the month leaves me feeling a little needy. being a girl isnt as easy as you might think. haha. oh look, there's the sun. :)

i need to get in the shower. but i really dont feel like it. gah, im getting so lazy. something needs to change! ive been sleeping til almost 12 everyday. & i rarely do much anymore. except for read & get online. occasionally ill watch a movie. & eat, i do that too. ha. im assuming that while im in college ill be extremely busy. & while i have a slight recollection of being extremely busy & not being too fond of it i feel like thatll be what my lifes about at the time; school. & itll be okay. cuz ill be too busy to miss home. at least thats what im hoping. & when i come home itll be a nice little break thatll make me thankful to have a home to come back to. :) ah, who knows whatll it be like? why am i even trying to figure it out? blah.

im running out of money quickly. im thinking about coming into the office for a couple of days next week to get a little extra cash. im starting to get a little worried that i wont really have what i need for my dorm stuff. im already having to take out student loans for $3200. which reminds me i need to get on that. first thing monday. i hope i can remember that...

well, i dont know how much longer my battery is gonna last & i really should go take a shower. since i may be going out somewhere tonight & there's no way im going out looking like this. plus the dogs next door are really annoying me with their doglike noises. haha.

i hope everyone has a great weekend. :)
im out!