there's no music playing...

and i should definitely be going to bed. its almost ten and im about to pass out. it seems like ive been nonstop since... i dont know when. haha. but tomorrow night i get to rest. and then friday. so, i should be ready to go when sunday rolls around. i will have another eventful week next week. with work monday through thursday, once again, and kids crusade monday through wednesday. but that is something im definitely looking forward to! :D

so things are weird these days. and i dont know how to approach them. or deal with them. so i kind of dont? everything is in Gods hands right now. maybe thats the main reason all this is going on; He wants me to learn to trust him with EVERY aspect of my life. and i really believe im getting there. its almost like i have no choice. He sure knows how to get our attention, ha.

but like i said before i need to go to sleep.
i also need to finish my summer reading.
and practice my show music.
and load all my files back onto my computer.
and put my check in the bank.
and im sure theres a million other things.

im almost ready to go back to school cuz its seems like ill be less busy. thats bad. haha. and we all know when school starts my social life goes out the window until about november... unless youre a band kid that is. ha.

maybe you really shouldnt talk to me? maybe i dont have time for you? maybe youre too excited about life to care that much? maybe you should learn how immature it is to ignore someone? maybe you should learn to tell people whats going on?

and you! what the heck is wrong with you, boy?? seriously, grow up. youre way smarter than all of this! it really makes me sick to see how stupid youre being. whatever youre trying to do, its not working. take a chill pill before you really screw things up for yourself.


the end?
im tired.