wow. so in roughly 35 days ill be on my way to New York City. crazy, huh? i remember last year... sitting at our lunch table talking about "oh my gosh i cant wait for our junior year its going to be so awesome!" well here we are, more than halfway into our junior year already. i seriously cannot believe that time can pass so fast. time passes too fast. i wish i could go back in time for some things. and for others im glad they're over with.
i miss pace. i miss band camp. i miss wcu and lower state. i even miss state. and i dont know how to fix that. if i could go back and re-live those 3 or 4 months i wouldnt hesitate.
i hope you're having fun teaching history. i know how much you love it. but i also hope you know how much you are missed here. dont worry, we haven't forgotten you. at least i havent. and maybe one day i will. but i really dont want to. and as much as i dont want this to be the end, im coming to the realization that it is. maybe i'll see you at my wedding. lol.
i also miss summer. and the completely carefree attitude that comes with it. that absolute freedom is something i am craving. i'm sure i'm not the only one. its not good to be this restless. and it takes a lot of self discipline to stay focused. God, i need that self discipline!
in a little over 6 months i'll be 18. do you know how ridiculous that is? i shouldn't be 18. i'm still a kid. i mean, seriously, i don't even think i deserve to have lived this long! haha. but, yes, i am very thankful. 18 years... wow.
and soon ill be off to college and starting a life completely on my own. scary? or exciting? i can't say just yet. im still sitting in my parents house, eating their food, and taking their advice. and i dont think i will know what its like to be without that until i take myself away from it all next summer.
i have no idea what to expect out of life. things change. and they change so quickly. nothing is certain. but its good to know that i'm taken care of. its good to know that i have someone i can always count on. and thanks to my God, i dont have to be worried about my future. and i hope all of you can feel the same way. =]
i think i should go practice now... or something.
oh, we will find our place past the would have beens,
no more hanging from on a string.
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gosh hannah, this made me cry.
yeah maybe because im a baby but also because it hurts so bad to think about mr.pace. to think that everything we had with him is over. its like a part of me is still thinking he'll be at band camp, because how, how can we not have it without him. sorry this is probably really depressing but it just so crazy to think about.
but in a good note, i love you. and your amazing. ohh and trash pick up got cancelled this weekend, it was in an email. so enjoy sleeping in on saturday :)
i miss him a lot too.
a whole heck of a lot.
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