I left a map on your front seat just in case you lose your way;

So, I am pretty much settled in as a college student. Although, it feels like a Saturday since I haven't done anything except sleep, eat, get online & shower. It is a Sunday though. Which makes me miss being at Central to worship with all of my church family. I haven't even picked up my bible today. Crazy. I should read some after this.
I'm not scared anymore. I went through a good deal of stress on Thursday & Friday but now that I'm past it, I feel a whole lot better. & I'm not really having a hard time with being away from home. I don't really think about missing it too much. I thought it might be a problem for me not seeing Jared but it's going well. Like we said before I left; if anyone can do this, we can. We've been through a heck of a lot & a week or two away should be nothing for us. I've realized that as long as I am able to stay busy it's easier for me to keep it off my mind. & I love technology just for the fact that I can text or call him whenever I feel the need to. :)
My parents seem to be doing well. I hope that's the case.
I'm doing laundry for the first time tonight! I mean, I've done laundry plenty of times at home but this should be a different experience.
Jess & I went to see a movie in Charlotte last night. It was like 20 minutes away. It took us like 45 minutes to get home though because we got a little turned around. It was sort of my fault. But it was after midnight & apparently my mind doesn't operate as well at that time of the night... or morning?
I'm not really nervous about any of my classes. Not my music classes, because I sort of just feel comfortable around that subject. & not my ACAD or writing class because Jessica has those with me. I am a little nervous about Psychology though. Because it'll probably be a larger class. & plus I've never had a Psychology class before so I really don't know anything. It'll be fine, though. I'm really starting to feel like I belong here. I am very proud of the decision I made in this school. I think this is really where I'm supposed to be. It's a good feeling. :)
I am coming home Friday, though, & that's something I am able to look forward to. That's probably another reason I don't miss home too badly. Because I know when I'm going to be able to go back. Well, I should probably go do something else. I wouldn't doubt it if Jess was getting annoyed at my typing noises.
Bye bye.

"For we can not do anything against the truth, but only for the truth" 2Cor. 13:8

I move tomorrow.
It finally hit me today.
If it's possible for a numbness to "hit" you.
I feel like I've been holding back tears all night.
But the truth is I can't squeeze any out.
It's like they're just sitting at the back of my throat.
It's only a few weeks, what's the big deal?
I'm scared, that's the big deal.
Yes, I'm scared.
This is no small change.
& I know this.
I admit that I'm scared.
God, I can't do this alone!
I'm ready to get past this being new & different.
I'm ready for it to be normal.
But until then, I am scared out of my mind.

I will be a light in the darkest night;

So I have today & tomorrow. Then I'm off to college. Still crazy to think about but at this point I can say that I'm pretty excited about it all. I'm not even really nervous about my audition on Friday. That's, of course, due to excessive prayer on the subject. I'm usually a wreck when it comes to auditioning. It's amazing what a little prayer will do. ;)
As for today I reckon I will start packing. I hope that tomorrow I can spend the day with Jared. We've been trying to go to the river all week but he's been sick since Friday so his focus has been getting rid of this sickness before school starts. I don't blame him. I don't really want to get sick either. So, he's taking it easy again today seeing as he's running a bit of a fever still. I believe he'll be much better tomorrow & I will have an amazing last day in Lexington. :)
I'm about to get in there & start packing now. I could watch some online tv but that would really be a waste of my time. I'll watch something while I eat lunch. I'm glad I was able to get up around 9 this morning. I woke up with the intention of going to the river but it's okay that it didn't work out. There are a lot of things I can do here to get ready for Thursday & I'm sure it will be a lot less stressful than doing it last minute (tomorrow).
My sheets come in today. Another good reason I wasn't able to go to the river; I'll be here to get those. Not that I expect anyone in my neighborhood to gank them off my front steps, but ya never know! Maybe I should stop wasting valuable time & go do something productive.
I'm a happy person.
This is good.
:)

Now autumn brings the beautiful things;

Well, it's August. Already. I have to admit I have had a really great summer. In the past couple of months I have learned so much about myself & what I want out of life. I can confidently say that I have no regrets about this summer & I am very proud of how it turned out. :)
I leave for Rock Hill in a week exactly. 7 days. Again, it's crazy to think about being a college student. It seems like yesterday I was going to my first band camp. But, ya know, that's life. & it moves quickly, whether you're ready for it to or not. I've been praying to get rid of any college anxiety & I must say it has been working. Instead of being worried about going away, I've had peace about the situation. Not so much of a resigned peace. More of like a nearly excited peace. I know that it's going to be okay. It'll be good, actually. And, where before I was almost dreading the start of the semester, I am looking forward to it. At least, it's getting there. & I'm going to keep praying about it. Because I really don't want to be torn up by nerves. & I'd hate to ever dread waking up & facing another day. That's not the way I would choose to live my life. Make the best out of everything, right?
Tonight's actually the first night in a long time that I've been home this early. Lately I've been out past midnight. I guess I've just been trying to make the most out of every moment of freedom I have left. Ha.
In all honesty I can't even imagine what this next chapter of my life is going to be like. So I think I've given up trying. As crazy as life gets these days I find myself surrendering my life on a daily basis. No one knows more about what's best for me than God does. So, why not just get rid of all the worry, stress & anxiety? I mean He's offered to take it off my hands free of charge! What person in their right mind would turn an opportunity like that down? I can honestly say that I am trusting the Lord with my life. Just thinking about the damage I could do to it on my own... No thanks.
Everything is starting to come together now. I'm almost ready to move in. Ever since I've been praying for a stress reliever I've felt so relaxed about it all. Why is it that we are so stupid sometimes? It takes us getting to the point where we feel so completely out of control before we realize that we don't have to do everything on our own. & it's not like it's a one time thing. It happens at least three times a year. Oh, consistency, how we yearn for you. I doubt it will ever be different. But at least I reach that point where I remember sanity is just a prayer away. I don't know where I'd be without Him. I really don't.
Anyway, I'm tired. And I haven't read a book in like a week. Well, besides the Bible. So I think I'm gonna go read for a bit then head on to bed. Maybe I can actually wake up around ten tomorrow. That would be awesome. I'd hate to waste my last few days at home by sleeping.