after all this time, i never thought we'd be here;

well, howdy. how ya doin?
so i tried to take a nap earlier but it didn't work out. i couldn't sleep. i dont really know why. but i hate it when that happens. i wanna talk to my boyfriend. i dont remember the last time i did. other than text that is.
holy cow, guess what! im going blonde tomorrow. how crazy is that? really crazy, i know. im actually pretty nervous about it. but im sure it wont be like hideous. so itll be okay. at least, i think im going blonde. as long as jessica's not mad at me anymore. i think she'll be fine. if she is mad, however, i dont think ill have a problem making her unmad. maybe if she'd check her facebook every once in a while... geez. lol.
jared doesnt get off work for a while. i think i may go get some chips & queso and watch an NCIS or something. i wish it was monday. because then i could watch the bachelorette. & i love the bachelorette. i know, im a weirdo. but hey, i wouldnt exactly be me if i wasnt! :)
church picnic tomorrow. its been a while since we've had one of those. it makes me excited, though, because i like playing volleyball. it makes me feel good about myself. even if i do suck at it. im gonna be blonde though. & people are gonna talk to me about it. thats the only thing thats gonna suck about changing my hair color: drawing attention to myself. blah.
next week i get to start planning all the stuff for my party. im excited. not as excited as i was, though. cuz now my family isnt coming up for graduation. & i was reallyyyy looking forward to that because i haven't seen them since thanksgiving. i miss them. lots. but, its okay. i'll see them eventually. plus im not too sure im ready for them to meet jared yet. its nothing against him, of course. im just... not sure im ready. lol.
speaking of jared, he invited me to go to the beach with his family next month. i would love to go. i just dont know how its gonna sit with my parents. & plus i really need to find a job. & it may not be good for me to take off. i would love to not have to work at all this summer. it would be so awesome to just enjoy my senior summer. but, unfortunately, there's college stuff that needs to be paid for. & im sure ill still have plenty of memorable moments in the next couple of months.
yes, im done with high school. forever. its an extremely weird feeling. i dont even know how to digest it quite yet. but maybe after i walk across the stage it will all make a little more sense to me? who knows...
anyways, chips & queso. sounds like a plan.
peace out.