& i never met a toby that i didnt like;

howdy. how are things? its been going well on my end. life is pretty busy, but whats new? the only complaint i have right now is that im not spending enough time with God. its like, the busier my life gets, the more i put Him on the backburner. i realized that this morning at church. it stung a little bit. i mean, i knew it before. because im smart like that. but i actually felt him telling me. so yea, it wasnt too fun of an experience. so i know i need to spend more time with him. i need to get back to reading... its been a few days since ive done that. because ive been going to bed really late. looking back on it, it doesnt make much sense. i mean ten more minutes isnt gonna hurt me. in fact the way i wouldve used it, it wouldve helped me. tremendously. us humans are idiots. and thats a fact.

i have some homework to do. i havent really looked at my planner since friday so i dont know exactly how much. i have my current events printed out but i havent started to summarize them yet. of course, that doesnt take too long. and tonight will be the first time im doing it before the day its actually due. ha. thats something to be kind of proud of. right? sure.

i took a three hour nap today. i still think im gonna be ready to go to bed at normal time. maybe ill be able to talk on the phone a little bit tonight. its been a while since ive done that. with me and jared both working and going to school and me having indoor on top of all of that its a little harder to see each other these days. its okay though, we're doing good. im very pleased with where we are right now. i wouldnt want it any different right now. its amazing how much God puts up with our crap. i mean, i dont deserve all this but He's given it to me anyway. how can i not love Him?

i haven't finished the twilight series yet. how crazy is that? i stopped reading breaking dawn right in the middle. i havent picked it up for like a month. thats how busy my lifes been. and i just finished putting my music on my computer tonight. i really dont ever remember being this busy before. welcome to life, i guess. ha.

so im probably not gonna get to spend time with jared on valentine's day. thats wonderful... not. kinda ridiculous. i mean, i understand this stuff. so its not gonna bother me too much. like new year's. i didnt get to see him then either. i can handle it. im not one of those people that freak over every little thing. i mean, i know he wants to be with me too so its not a big deal. life is just crazy sometimes. but if things keep going the way theyre going maybe next year itll work out better. ha. there's no telling.

im really curious to see whats gonna happen over the next few years. in every aspect of my life. even the next year is going to be FULL of changes for me and the people around me. its crazy to think about, really. i want to approach life with an open mind. i dont want to miss out on anything that God has for me. i want to be really close to Him before i leave. i know how important that is. and i really do want my life to be the best it can be. and in order for that to happen, i need to be connected to the One who knows best what life has to offer.

its eight. i should probably get started on that homework. maybe ill have time to get back into breaking dawn. i really do wish i had the time to read. i like reading. ha.

anyways, have a good night.
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