i know this sounds bipolar & all...

but i just wanted people to know in case they got worried:

i talked to my parents and cried a little and im okay.
at least for now. ha.
i think the whole venting thing helped a lot.
its always hard for me to tell people whats going on with me. mostly because i can hardly understand it myself. i know, im a weird person. but i ended up talking to my parents about how stressed ive been feeling and it was a good thing.
i have this problem though; every time i try to talk about stuff like that i start to cry. its really hard for me to get stuff out. haha. it was a mess. im glad you guys weren't there.

anywho! point being i feel ten times better than before.
im only 18, i think i should get a chance to overreact every once in a while. ha.

im gonna go finish eclipse now.
:)