the sky could be blue, i dont mind, without you its a waste of time.

so my life has been busy. what more can you expect, though, in the month of august? with band and school, and occasionally church, i barely have time to breathe... yet alone go out with friends or write blogs. but here i am. its after nine, and other then being in bed i could be studying for my physics test. which is what i should be doing. and what i would be doing, if my night didnt take the turn it did.

i dont really know how to deal with things. thats something ive noticed. usually ill just pray about it, and leave it in Gods hands. which is the best thing to do, dont get me wrong. its just, when you have something that really affects the routine of your life, it becomes a little harder to let it go. trust isnt the issue. i trust God completely with my life. it just hurts along the way. its confusing.

i think for the first time its something that i really do not understand. something that im scared to understand. i dont know what effect it will have on my life. i dont know how it will change things not only a year from now, but a week from now. because its happening, and its happening now, whether i like it or not. and im going to have to make a decision. people may look at me different. i may not be comfortable there anymore. something like this is something you never hope to encounter. a falling out isnt easy to maneuver around.

i have a phone call...