If I could choose, its only you ;

The issue is I don't want to have to choose. Because I may end up making a huge mistake. So right now, I'm not choosing. After a week or so of fighting with myself, I've come to the conclusion that things don't need to go any where. They can stay the same for a little while longer. We could all use more time, anyway.
The fear of things falling apart is what keeps me close to Him. I don't feel right about that. But at the moment I don't know how to change it. Or maybe I do, and I just don't see it happening. The point is I'm not going to let go of Him. Because He holds me together.

So far this week has been a good one. Things in my life have started coming together. I'm feeling less overwhelmed and I have more of a sense of belonging. It just took some time. Not that I'm exactly where I need to be right now. But, hopefully, it will only get better from here. :)
I'm really looking forward to Fall Break. For many reasons ;
1. I get to spend four whole days in Lexington!
2. I get to see David Cook in concert!
3. I get to go to a Sunday night youth service! (I've missed those kids...)
4. The fair! :)
That's pretty much it. But it will be a nice little break. And hopefully I'll be able to hang out with people that I haven't seen in a while. Because there are people that I miss. Not too many people, though. Haha.

I took my first college exam today! I'm pretty sure I made an "A". That's always a good feeling. :)
My first real essay is due next Tuesday. I plan on starting it Friday. That way I have all weekend to work on it. I've also planned to practice every day of the week except Tuesdays and Fridays. Those are kind of random days but they're just thrown in there to give me a bit of a break. I have a feeling that the practicing thing will become routine rather quickly. It really doesn't take that long. Just an hour out of my day. I've decided that I'd rather practice at night when there's hardly anyone in the building. I don't really like people to hear me. Haha. So tonight I'm going to the West Center for a work out and then to a practice room. And I'm doing that soon. Like as soon as I finish blogging.

I feel like my blogs have gotten ridiculously boring. Maybe because I've had so much on my mind that I didn't really feel comfortable blogging about. So I just wrote a bunch of pointless bullcrap. Haha. It happens, I guess.

I looked up Brad Paisley's tour dates today. He's playing at West Palm Beach on the 17th. That's the day of the David Cook concert. If I didn't already have plans to see David Cook, I would so try to go to see Brad Paisley. Do you know how fun that would be? Amazingly fun. But Jared said maybe next year. I sure hope he goes on tour next year. & that he plays at West Palm Beach. On a date that we can get away from school. Haha, sounds like a lot of things have to happen exactly right in order to go. But, hey, a girl can dream! :)

I need to go shave. I hope this blog was a little more interesting than the past few. For your sake. And my own when I choose to go back and read all my blogs. I have done that before. It took a long time then. It'll take a really long time in the future.

Anyway, have a great Wednesday night! <3