I think one of the most beautiful things about this life is that no one really knows how to get it perfectly right. In a sense, we're all figuring things out as we go along. Some of us have a really good sense of direction, based on Faith. Some of us don't have a clue. But we're all the same in that we live by trial and error. It's amazing, as messed up as we are, that we can create such wonderful relationships. That we can bring forth the miracle another being with just our own bodies. That we can put together a series of thoughts into what could become a world revolution. Our God isn't fair. No, He's much too generous. This life that we live, it's indescribable. Forget about money, forget about war, forget about politics. Just take a look around you. Look at all the INCREDIBLE gifts that God has given us. A people who constantly cause Him greif. Who are we to deserve such a blessed and full life? We are His beloved. It makes absolutely no sense. But despite it all, He loves us. With a love so strong that no one can comprehend it. We aren't perfect. We fail entirely too much. But this is a journey. This is a relationship. We learn as we go. And even when we come close to understanding, there's no way we will get it right 100% of the time. But that doesn't mean we should stop trying. If we love Him like we say we do, we will try to get it right. We will try to understand. And we will cling to Him through it all. Because, where else can we go?
One of these days, I'm going to have a family of my own. And if they learn nothing else from me, they will learn how much God loves them. They will learn how to find His love in every day life by just looking around. By being thankful for each and every beautiful day they're given. The responsibility lies on me to never let myself take that for granted. Because if I can't show them, how will they ever know?
Anyway, there's kind of been a lot going on. With me anyway. A lot of changing and rearranging. But it's for the better, I know it. Today I actually had the desire to go back to school. Crazy, I know! I guess I've just been kind of bored lately. It's not good to sit at home, really. I've been cleaning and stuff but that only goes so far. I wish I was able to get a job. It's so late in the summer now I'm not sure it's even worth it. Not if there willing to really work with my schedule. Because with band about to start up, I'm gonna need them to be flexible. I really don't know how that would work. But I'm sure if I pray about it, everything will work out fine. :)
I should probably get in the shower since I have to leave in like an hour. I missed church on Sunday so I'm looking forward to going tonight. Unfortunately, Lauren has practice so she won't be able to come with. But it's all gravy.
Byes.
