brad paisley, backgammon, & an allergic reaction;

wow. its been nearly half a month since ive updated. a lot has happened, i guess. im blonde, a high school graduate, & nearly $1,000 richer. haha. as for that job, no one ever called me back. so i wont be working this summer after all. i reckon thats a good thing. i think itll take a lot of pressure off of me.
i have orientation up at winthrop next week. i feel like i should be more excited about it. & going off to college in general. but to be perfectly honest i feel like the past few weeks ive been living completely in the moment. maybe thats not a good thing. but i dont have any regrets. & its not like ive made any life changing decisions. lets hope it stays that way.
i really enjoyed sunday morning service this past week. i felt close to God again. sometimes i dont feel so close & sometimes i do. i wish i always did. its really something im trying to work on. but with this whole living in the moment thing it sometimes doesnt work out too well. maybe im losing sight of whats really important to me. but at the same time i know thats not true. i know that when its all said & done, my faith & hope in God is the last thing im ever letting go of. because no matter what i do, i know that there's only one consistancy in my life & thats Him. what breaks my heart is that i dont always acknowledge that fact. & He is worth so much more than that. His patience with me is absolutely astounding & i am oh so thankful for it. i wish i could show it more often.
i went camping this past weekend, in case you didnt know. it was the first time since i was like four. i had a really good time. it was an adventure. i havent been too adventurous throughout my life & i like the way it feels to take a crazy risk. hence my whole "living in the moment" phase. haha. i imagine a lot of graduates are having the same feelings at this point in their lives. but i wouldnt know exactly because im not them. all i know is how i feel about life. & im trying to take these next couple of months one day at a time. because i want the memory of this summer to last forever. which is funny because in the scheme of things this summer may turn out to be just another summer. with absolutely no significance. somehow i find that hard to believe right now. but who knows what things will turn out like in the next ten years. not i.
its nearly eleven. i need to switch the clothes over like my mom asked me to. & i have a bit of a busy schedule for tomorrow. not to mention ill only have a few hours to do it because i dont plan on getting up at a specific time. maybe my body will be good to me & be well rested by ten. that would be nice. anyway, im off. i hope people still read these things...
goodnight. <3