now the oil in my skin fuels a fire from within

for too long i have been in a dream.
if i choose to stay, caught up in the waves,
i'll not be afraid.

i can't believe its november 19th already. seriously, where did all the time go? i've spent way too many blogs talking about time and how quickly its passing now a days so, how about i talk about something different this time;

apparently, im sick. my voice is slowing leaving me. :(
i dont remember ever losing my voice before when i got sick. in fact, i dont get sick all that often. so this is kind of new to me. i dont feel sick. i just sound sick. its very possible i will start feeling sick soon... its not something im looking forward to.

only three more days of school until thanksgiving break! :D
im excited. i loveeee thanksgiving break. i get to go to alabama and chill with the best family on the planet. im not sure dad's going with us this year, he might have to work. that definitely stinks. but at least we have enough money to allow me and mom to go. i dont know what i'd do if i had to stay here for thanksgiving. thats so abnormal and against the laws of the universe. at least, it feels that way.

oh news that you probably havent heard:
although, its not very new. i've known since saturday. but, i got my acceptance letter from winthrop on saturday. i was surprised because it wasnt supposed to come until friday. anyhow, they offered to pay half of my tuition. my dad called when he got the letter because i was at indoor practice. i was extremely excited. i still am. its awesome. with that and palmetto fellows all i have to cover is room and board. which is about 6,000 a year. maybe ill be able to get a couple of other scholarships to help out with that, but honestly, right now i dont feel like looking for any. good thing i still have 6 months before graduation.

i bought a laptop this morning, during first block. i find it kind of funny that the school blocks all these ridiculous sites that have absolutely not reason to be blocked but they allow access to ebay. so much access, in fact, that i was able to complete a transaction on a $500 item. crazy schools. there's no telling what the school system is gonna be like by the time i have kids. i better start praying now so i can keep my sanity when those days arrive. ha.

anywho, it comes monday. that makes me happy. mostly because ill have it for thanksgiving break. i was gonna get a macbook but i decided that i didnt want to spend all of my savings. i shouldnt have even spent what i did, but once i get a job at the beginning of the year, ill be able to make it back in about a month. and maybe once college gets closer i can sell mine and get my parents to pay for the rest of the macbook. they were gonna get me one for graduation anyway. i just was getting annoyed having this humongous desktop. it takes up like a 5th of my room. haha, not really, but it sure feels like it.

im going up to winthrop this weekend for the band clinic. i am very excited. im nervous about the chair auditions, of course, but when am i ever not nervous about those kinds of things? i think its gonna be a lot of fun. im glad i got the chance to do it, especially since its my last year and all.

so disney is in a month exactly. this should be a very exciting christmas. i really am extremely thrilled to be going. i always enjoy going but the christmas atmosphere is gonna make it 50x more special. ha, im such a nerd. but its okay, i enjoy life. :)
i just wish i could share the experience with more than just my mom and dad and chantal and her family. i love them all to death, but there are a few other people that really mean a lot to me. it would be absolutely perfect if the rest of my family went. and of course jessica and jared. they're my heart. <3 these are the people i want to share everything important with. the people that i love loving. the people that i couldnt imagine my life without. the people that have made a huge difference in my life. if im blessed to be around these people for as long as possible then i will be perfectly happy with life.





i feel like im slowly drawing near to You again. i love knowing that You're always here and You're always rooting for me. i love knowing that whatever i ask You for, You will do Your absolute best to have it happen. that what You desire more than anything is for me to be happy. i love knowing that if my world were to one day fall completely apart that You will be there make sure i dont fall with it. i dont thank You enough for who You are and what You do for me each and every day. i wake up in the morning knowing how blessed i am and still forget to acknowledge You. im not worthy of the love that You have never stopped giving me, and this is why i love You more than anything or anyone that i have or ever will come in contact with. You are my everything. that statement has my very life in it. & it means more than anything i will ever say.

here am i, all of me.
take my life, its all for Thee.

!

hi, my name's hannah.
at the moment my heart is completely full.
i feel like it could explode at any second.

i had an absolutely amazing day.

reason 1: i visited winthrop.
reason 2: i fell in love with winthrop.
reason 3: gamecocks won.
reason 4: i did absolutely no homework.
reason 5: i saw a hilarious movie.
reason 6: i ate arbys and wendys; both in one day.
reason 7: i spent time with the most amazing boy on the planet.
reason 8: i was right about murphy's gas prices.
reason 9: i actually spent time with my mom.
reason 10: him. just him. only him. and thats all.

i cant say much.
i want to, but i cant.
all i can say is im extremely excited about whats in my future. :))

God, give me the strength to get through the next seven months of torture. im so tired of high school and im ready to start something new. itll take a miracle for me to keep focused. good thing you're experienced with miracles.

its time for me to go to bed.
i dont feel well.
but im happy.
goodnight! <3