& we all fall down, again ;

I think one of the most beautiful things about this life is that no one really knows how to get it perfectly right. In a sense, we're all figuring things out as we go along. Some of us have a really good sense of direction, based on Faith. Some of us don't have a clue. But we're all the same in that we live by trial and error. It's amazing, as messed up as we are, that we can create such wonderful relationships. That we can bring forth the miracle another being with just our own bodies. That we can put together a series of thoughts into what could become a world revolution. Our God isn't fair. No, He's much too generous. This life that we live, it's indescribable. Forget about money, forget about war, forget about politics. Just take a look around you. Look at all the INCREDIBLE gifts that God has given us. A people who constantly cause Him greif. Who are we to deserve such a blessed and full life? We are His beloved. It makes absolutely no sense. But despite it all, He loves us. With a love so strong that no one can comprehend it. We aren't perfect. We fail entirely too much. But this is a journey. This is a relationship. We learn as we go. And even when we come close to understanding, there's no way we will get it right 100% of the time. But that doesn't mean we should stop trying. If we love Him like we say we do, we will try to get it right. We will try to understand. And we will cling to Him through it all. Because, where else can we go?

One of these days, I'm going to have a family of my own. And if they learn nothing else from me, they will learn how much God loves them. They will learn how to find His love in every day life by just looking around. By being thankful for each and every beautiful day they're given. The responsibility lies on me to never let myself take that for granted. Because if I can't show them, how will they ever know?

Anyway, there's kind of been a lot going on. With me anyway. A lot of changing and rearranging. But it's for the better, I know it. Today I actually had the desire to go back to school. Crazy, I know! I guess I've just been kind of bored lately. It's not good to sit at home, really. I've been cleaning and stuff but that only goes so far. I wish I was able to get a job. It's so late in the summer now I'm not sure it's even worth it. Not if there willing to really work with my schedule. Because with band about to start up, I'm gonna need them to be flexible. I really don't know how that would work. But I'm sure if I pray about it, everything will work out fine. :)

I should probably get in the shower since I have to leave in like an hour. I missed church on Sunday so I'm looking forward to going tonight. Unfortunately, Lauren has practice so she won't be able to come with. But it's all gravy.

Byes.

What happened to May?!

I know it's been over a month since I last blogged. Don't shoot me. :/ There's been A LOT going on! For one, school is finally out! With all of the exams and moving out going on I had absolutely NO time to blog. And then when all that was over we went down for Florida for vacation. Which was absolutely amazing! Even more amazing than I was expecting considering I was PROPOSED to! :D I am so extremely proud of that man of mine. He did such a good job with all of it. The ring is gorgeous and the timing could not have been better. He knows me so well and it took so much for him to do what he did. I truly love him and I am stoked that I get to spend the rest of my life with him! It's good to finally be able to say that he is my one and only, the love of my life. ♥

I made a pretty big decision when it comes to school. Of course, this decision was made before I was proposed to. I decided to transfer home. There were many reasons why I would rather stay home and only two reasons why I wouldn't. And though Amanda and Katherine are two very good reasons, the pros of coming home just outweighed the cons. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders knowing that I don't have to leave town at the end of the summer! I also decided to change my major. My heart wasn't really into the whole music education thing anymore and in a major like that, if your heart's not in it, it's nearly impossible to succeed. It was a lot of hard work that I just wasn't feeling would be worth it in the end. I decided to switch to early education and I am very happy with my decision. :) In order to save money, I plan on going to Tech this fall and transferring to USC in the spring. I figure I can get a good 15 hours of general education classes out of the way for free. And plus I'm not too sure I'm ready to dive into such a large school just yet. I admit that USC is a bit intimidating...

I'm super ecstatic that summer is here. My first vacation was pretty awesome but I'm excited about the rest of the summer trips too. :) Hopefully Jared and I, and possible Hannah Martin, are taking a trip down to West Palm Beach to see my lovely ex-roommate Katherine Blazer sometime mid-June. And then at the beginning of July we're heading down to Edisto for the annual Chapiesky beach trip. Haha. That one I am particularly thrilled about since I'm kind of part of the family now. :)

I really need a job but the truth is I'm wanting to wait until after Edisto so that I won't have to ask off. And if by some miracle Mr. Turner decides he wants me on staff with the band then I may just wait 'til after band season is over to find one. My parents won't be too thrilled about that but it's just a few more months. Hopefully once I find one I will be able to keep it throughout my college years.

At any rate, it's getting kind of late and I need to decide whether I'm ready to go to bed or if I want to watch an episode of Lost before I go. And if you know me, you know I'm no good at making decisions. Haha.

Goodnight!
:) <3

Either way it'll be alright ;

It has been so busy lately! Hence the fact that I haven't blogged in like three weeks. And yea, a whole lot has gone on. But I'd rather look forward...

For one, This coming week is my last full week of classes! All I have is this week and next Monday and I'm done. Except for exams, of course, but I can handle those knowing that soon I will be at the happiest place on Earth! :))

Yes, in just three short weeks I will be on my way to Disney! I seriously am soooo excited! We are gonna have a blast, I just know it!

Tonight Jared and I are going over to see Jess and the new baby! I can't wait to meet him! I've gotten pictures and he is just the sweetest little thing! I would love to be able to stay for a while and hang out but Jared told his dad he'd be home for dinner. That's probably for the best, though. Being a new mom and everything is a lot of work and I'm sure Jess needs her space.

I miss her. It's been too long since I've last seen her. :/

I don't really know what else to talk about. I'm just so ready for it to be summer.
I applied to work at Monkey Joe's again this summer. I'm hoping now that I have a little more life experience they will actually consider hiring me this time. I honestly can't go all summer without some kind of income. I have school to pay for. & other things that I need to save for. Important and exciting things that can't be mentioned on the internet at this time. But soon. ;)

My cat is begging me to let her go outside. She doesn't understand the concept of NO! Lol. I was just out there with her for like 20 minutes and I almost lost her. I don't think my mom would be too pleased if she woke up from her nap and we had no clue where the cat was. Then again, maybe she would? I don't really know but I'm not gonna risk it.

I'm gonna start packing up my things at four. I'll still be ready to go way before Jared is. But, oh well. Too bad we won't have cable. Sometimes it gets really boring around this house. But I still prefer being home to being at school. Ha.
Speaking of school, I could very well be doing homework right now but I just choose not to. It's that summer bug. What can ya do?

I'm gonna go now. I'm all out of things to talk about...

Caught up in the waves, I'll not be afraid ;

Wow. A whole heck of a lot has happened in the past three weeks. I can't even get into it all. Let's just say that it has been quite a life changing experience. I regret nothing. And I'm so excited about what's to come!

I didn't get much sleep this weekend due to the fact that I made an "emergency" trip to Lexington. It really wasn't anything horrible, I just needed to spend a girl's day with little miss Lauren. :) She had a rough week and I wanted to make sure she was alright. We had a blast. Anyway, the point of me saying I didn't get much sleep is to follow up by saying I couldn't get up this morning. Literally could not. That's why I'm writing a blog, really. Because it's in the middle of the Music Ed class and I can't very well waltz in. So I'm waiting on 10 o'clock to roll around so I can go to my lesson. Which probably won't be too amazing since I just had a lesson on Friday. And, no, I have no practiced since then. But I would think he would be a bit understanding. Maybe.

I have a paper due on Wednesday. If I have any brains at all I will start that today. I should be able to since I'm done earlier today than normal. I also need to start my Theory project. I would really like to get a good grade on that. I did great on my last test! A lot better than the last one at least. 9 points better. :)

Before I go, I'd like to wish a happy 20 months to the love of my life!
I love you, baby! For now & for always! I promise. <3

:/

I'm a happy person. Most people know that about me.
So when I have multiple bad days in a short time span, I know it's time for a break.

Lord, just help me through.

I'm not myself. At all.

It must be a girl thing.

I know they're too young. They were reckless, or irresponsible. Whatever you want to call it. They have no idea what's coming next or even how to make it work. It's going to be anything but easy.

Despite all of this, I still find myself feeling jealous.

Because they're together.

I wish I wasn't in such a rush. But I can't help it. It's all I can think about.

It must be a girl thing.

Turn my cartwheels into headstands ;

I don't know why I found this picture so amusing. You have to admit, it has a little charm. That beach looks wonderful. What I wouldn't give to be at the beach right now.

One of our buildings caught on fire today. It's closed for the rest of semester. They have to figure out where they're going to move all of the classes. My roommate saw somewhere that if they can't find anywhere by Monday they might just cancel classes for next week. As much as I want to believe that to be true, it's kind of absurd. It just doesn't make much sense. If there is some truth in that, however, how absolutely amazing would that be? Eh, why am I even entertaining such a thought.

My goal for these next six days is to survive. Not just survive, though. I want to be productive enough to where I can go into spring break knowing I'm in a good position academically. There are a few things I will have to do over spring break, however. Like write a paper. But it shouldn't be that big of a deal. I figure after a few days of doing nothing, I'll get pretty bored with just sitting around. Especially since my parents don't have cable anymore.

I wanted to take a day to go to Charleston to visit my dear friend, Spencer, but it just doesn't look like it's gonna work. Where am I gonna get the gas money? I wouldn't have to worry about gas if Jared went but he has school and work and absolutely no time to go galvantin' to the beach. Ha, I don't even know if that's how you spell such a word. But since it doesn't really exist, I don't guess it matters. :)

I need to save my money as much as I can over break. I have to pay $70 for initiation.

I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little stressed out right now. It seems like there is a lot going on. I'm just gonna keep praying that my head stays on straight. It would be so harmful for me to lose my focus. Good thing my God is on my side. :)

On that note, I reckon I should head on to bed. I don't want to be sleeping 'til twelve tomorrow. Although, there's no tellin' with the way my allergies have been acting up...

Night.